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The Making of a Gigolo (14) - Erica Bradford
by Lubrican
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Chapter Sixteen
Will sat stiffly in his seat. He wasn't sure it had been a
good idea at all to go with Christy. He felt a little like
he'd been ambushed, though it didn't bring the fear and helpless
feeling he usually associated with that concept. She had sat
beside him during the whole show, and had leaned toward him a number of
times to make a soft comment about a scene or performance. At
intermission she had brought back a plate of cookies, and had asked him
if he needed to be pushed anywhere. He knew she was talking
about the bathroom, but he had learned to go light on fluids whenever
he was going to be out like this, and declined.
He couldn't figure out what she was doing. He thought at
first that it was pity, but she didn't act like she felt pity for
him. She just talked to him, saying whatever was on her
mind. During the last quarter of the show he had started
doing the same thing. It had just seemed normal to respond in
kind.
Then, as he hopped up to join the standing ovation, and her hand came
to his elbow while she whistled, of all things. When it finally died down and people began to leave, she had leaned over and
said, "I'd like some ice cream. You want some too?"
She'd snuck up on him. He'd said "Yes," before he could think
about it.
Now they were parked at the Dairy Bee and she was at the window,
ordering for them. His chair was in the back seat.
Once he'd told her where to push, and it began to fold, she'd
muscled it into the back, letting him get himself into the car.
It was like she gave him only as much help as he absolutely needed, and
nothing more. That was strange. She was
strange. She didn't act like other women did when they saw
him, and he didn't know how to act with her.
She came back with a banana split and a large cup of
something. He'd said he liked chocolate, when she'd
asked him what he wanted. She got in and handed him the
cup. She'd thought of the fact that he couldn't eat anything
with a spoon, unless someone held the dish for him.
She ate in silence for a while, as he took little sips of a rich
chocolate shake. That was another thing that confused
him. She didn't talk nonstop to fill the uneasy
silence. People usually either said nothing to him at all, or
talked all the time, as if they were proving they could interact with a
freakish monster and make it appear to be normal. But her
silence wasn't the horrified stiff attempt to ignore the
monster. It was as if she just didn't have anything to say in
particular at the moment.
"I love ice cream," she sighed. "I know it will make me fat,
but I love it."
"You're not fat," he said.
"Not now," she said. "But if I ate ice cream as often as I
want to I would be." She took another bite. "I'll
have to add a mile or two tomorrow just to work this off."
"A mile or two?"
"I walk," she said. "It's an old habit that I just got used
to. I do a couple of miles a day, usually."
"It works," he said. He wondered why he's said that.
"I do believe you're flirting with me," she laughed.
He was astonished, both by her laughter, which sounded like she was
genuinely happy, and by the thought that she could even begin to
consider that if the monster flirted with her ... that wasn't something
to scream about. It was too much. He couldn't take
it.
"Why are you doing this?" he asked.
"I told you, I love ice cream."
"I mean me. Why did you bring me here?"
"I asked you if you wanted ice cream too, and you said yes."
This time her tone didn't sound quite so genuine.
"You know what I mean," he said.
"I don't know," she said. That sounded uncomfortable.
"I don't want pity," he said. It was his mantra.
"I can't help but feel some of that," she said. "Nobody could
look at your situation and avoid that." The way she said it
made pity sound like a natural consequence of being human. "I
think I feel guilty, a little bit."
"Guilty?"
"About my ex husband."
"Oh."
"And I like you."
"Huh?" He was astonished again. "You don't even know me."
"Isn't that what we're doing?" she asked. "Aren't we getting
to know one another?"
"You're beautiful," he moaned.
"Thank you," she said.
"I mean you could have any man you wanted."
"Let's not get ahead of ourselves here, big boy," said
Christy. "I said I like you. That doesn't mean I'm
ready to hop into bed with you or anything."
He was speechless. This was insane. He had to be
dreaming. She was talking to him like he was just a normal
guy, who had pushed things maybe a little too far and she was reining
him in. But he wasn't a normal guy. He'd never be
normal again. That was why he didn't feel bad about wanting
his sister. That wasn't normal ... but then he wasn't either
... not anymore.
"I'm not shopping for a man," she went on. "Can't I just like
you for who you are?"
"I don't know who I am," he said.
"Well then, maybe we can find out together."
She had kept him off his mental balance when she asked him if it would be
all right if they picked up her daughter from the sitter's, before she
took him home. The girl, named Jillian, stared at him like
any normal child would, both fascinated and repelled.
Christy, to deal with that, had just had him tell her daughter what had
happened to make him look this way.
"I bet that hurt," said the little girl.
"Yeah, it did," he said.
"Did anybody kiss it and make it better?" asked the girl, in her
innocence.
"Yeah," he said, thinking of the nurses, and Erica. "They
did."
She invited him to have coffee at her house. She didn't mind
all the extra effort it took to get him in there. He hopped
up the steps while Jillian watched, and then she attempted to do the
same thing ... on two feet instead of one. It was the first
time he'd felt more or less normal for as long as he could remember.
He'd told her Erica might be wondering where he was, and she'd said
they'd call once they got inside. When no one answered the
phone, she said she'd try again later.
They talked for another hour and a half, sipping coffee. Of
all the things they talked about, the war never came up. Nor
did his physical condition.
When she stopped in his driveway, with the passenger door next to the
ramp, he twisted in the seat.
"Thank you," he said.
"You're welcome," she said back.
"No, I mean it," he said. "Nobody's treated me like you did
tonight in a long time."
"All I did was take you out for ice cream," she said.
"You know what I mean," he said. "You treated me like I was
just a normal guy."
"Isn't there still just a normal guy inside that body?" she asked.
"I just don't get it," he sighed.
"Don't feel bad," she said, getting his chair out of the
back. "I don't either. How about we just try and
act normal, and see what happens."
Erica drove up while Christy was pushing him up the ramp. She
got out and ran to unlock the door. She hadn't thought to
give Will a key, since the only time he ever went anywhere she was with
him.
"Hi," she panted. "Sorry I wasn't here. Bobby took
me to get a root beer float and the time just slipped by."
Christy stood back to let Will's sister take over.
"Bobby took you out?" she asked. There was something in her
voice that made Erica's mental ears stand up, like there was more to
hear, but it was too far away or too soft. "Well, well,
well," she added.
"Now what does that mean?" Erica wondered.
"I'd love to stay and talk with you about that," said Christy, "but I
left my daughter sleeping and I need to get back. Can I
borrow your brother again sometime?"
Erica was completely off balance, both because this woman had whisked
Will away after the show, and because she appeared to be interested in
him, at least on some casual basis that Erica had no frame of reference
to compare to.
"Of course," she said, more because that was the expected response than
because she meant it.
"Thanks, Will," said Christy. "I had a good time."
Then she was off to her car, leaving brother and sister both looking
after her.
Erica was worried about going to bed together again. Some of
that was because she was afraid he'd have another flashback.
The rest of it was because she couldn't stop thinking about that penis,
nudging between those slippery labia.
Will took the flashback excuse away from her.
"I'm awake now," he said. "That won't happen again."
He sat on the bed as she undressed, and she felt the now familiar zing
of excitement as his eyes devoured each inch of skin she bared to
him. She felt the urge to squeeze her nipples before she even
had her panties off. She got him onto the bed first, with the
covers pulled down so that she could reach for them when they were
needed. She crawled onto the bed carefully, still nervous
about touching him.
"Would you ... suck me again?" he asked, breathlessly.
Her mind whirled back to what that had been like. His penis
had felt so completely foreign in her mouth. And yet, at the
same time, it had felt like it was made to fit there. She
remembered the smooth tight feel of the head, and the softer, more
malleable skin on the shaft. She hadn't thought about taste,
until it was suddenly there, in her mouth, a mixture of something
musky, a little bitter, but not in an unpleasant way. It was
just a hint of taste at first and she had pulled her mouth off as if
looking at it would give her some clue. It had,
actually. As she'd watched, a little bubble of
something mostly clear had seeped out of the hole in the tip.
She had seen that hole spread as ropes of white froth leap out of it
many times. But, she'd never thought about it having a taste
before. In the film, the woman had opened her mouth, while
the men masturbated into it. She clearly remembered almost
throwing up at the sight of that, and feeling like the woman couldn't
possibly be debased any further.
But having her mouth on Will just didn't feel like that. His
moans of joy were so heartfelt that she couldn't think of what she was
doing as debasement at all. It was just loving him with her
mouth instead of her hand. The taste that had flooded her
mouth as he gasped and cried out had been like his offering of thanks,
rather than some sexist ritual.
Now, as she got onto her hands and knees, to stare down at his
already-hard shaft, she actually licked her lips in anticipation of
both the texture of it in her mouth and the taste. The first
sensation of the smooth knob sliding through her lips made her feel
that if she didn't pull her nipples hard, she'd just
die. One hand shot between her legs, to dig into
the tunnel there.
His hand came up to smooth over her butt cheek and the sound she made
of appreciation was transmitted to his penis, and he jerked, driving it
deeply enough into her throat that she gagged. She pulled off
and coughed.
"Not so rough," she whined.
"Sorry," he panted. "You wouldn't believe how good that
feels, Erica."
She had no frame of reference for that, so she just concentrated on the
feel of his penis in her mouth. As a girl, one of her
favorite treats had been a Tootsie Roll Pop and she treated the knob
like it was one of those, sucking at it and pushing it around in her
mouth with her tongue.
She felt his hand slide down the back of her thigh, then reach to slide
up inside. His hand ran into hers, where her finger was
slicing in and out of her sex. Unconsciously, she realized he
was trying to help her, and without thinking about it, she raised one
knee. Had she been standing and watching this, she would have
sneered that the woman looked like a male dog, taking a leak, but she
wasn't watching ... she was feeling. By the time her
conscious mind realized what he was doing down there ... and how she
was accommodating him ... his long middle finger was firmly embedded in
her, as deep as he could get it.
His finger was thicker than hers, and longer too. The feeling
of it was so strange that she stopped sucking, shocked that when
someone else did that, it felt so completely different. Then
the base of his finger ground into her clitty and she thought the top
of her head would fly off. The next thing she thought of was
that ... if his finger felt that good in her ... something even bigger
... like what was in her mouth ... would feel that much better.
Erica Bradford's virginity was spared that night by another combination
of what Erica would have called bizarre circumstances. About the time she was thinking of
trying to see what something thicker and longer might feel like in her
vagina, the thing she was contemplating using flooded her mouth with
flavor. His hips jerked again and his pubic hair hit her
nose, as his penis was driven deeper than it had ever gone.
It went past her gag reflex so quickly that she only registered a
feeling of something stretching her throat, like she'd swallowed
something without chewing, and it was stuck. While it was
there it belched again. She couldn't taste it, that deep, but
she could feel it, and the choking sensation caused her to jerk her
head up. Again, her gag reflex was slipped past, and she
concentrated on swallowing and breathing.
The next thing she was aware of was that something was beating against
her clit. Her consciousness floated downwards, where his
finger was going in and out of her rapidly. Each time it went
in, there was an electric shock as her clit was punched.
Unable to wait any longer, she fell sideways, landing awkwardly on her
right shoulder, so that she could use both hands on her nipples.
She grabbed, squeezed, pulled hard ... and had an orgasm that was so
intense she forgot to breathe for a full seven seconds.
Again, had she been watching all this, she would have sneered at the
woman who sounded like some kind of alley cat, howling at the moon.
By the time she got her breath back, and had enough energy to turn
herself around and lay her head on Will's good arm and shoulder, the
urge to impale herself on his penis had passed.
The next day the performance for the school assembly in the auditorium
went well. There were elements in this musical that appealed
to teenagers ... the magic of a town that disappears ... unrequited
love ... and the lustiness of Meg trying to bed Jeff on the cot in the
forest.
Then, that night, with a mostly different crowd, there was another
performance that they would call perfect. By now the cast was
on cloud nine. It was a Friday night, and nobody had to get
up and do anything the next morning, so they all went out
together after the show. Someone had thought ahead, because the Wagon Wheel
was open late. Sal had been making pizza pies all evening,
in anticipation of something like this. On the chance that the kids wouldn't show, he figured he could just
freeze them and use them later, but the crowd that descended on his
diner had ten people in each eight person booth, and people sitting on
other people's laps at the tables.
Bobby and Erica had been swept up in the mass migration to the
diner. They stood back to let all the others go in first, and
when they walked in, a wave of heat, delicious smells, and noise hit
them like being slapped in the face.
"You want to take the pizza out to the car?" yelled Bobby.
Erica nodded. Bobby went and got a plate with several slices
of some kind of pizza on it. He grabbed two bottles of Coke
from the refrigerator behind the counter and they ducked outside.
Tonight Erica had seen Christy wheeling Will up toward the
foyer. She felt a twinge of worry for him. This
woman could tear his heart out if she wanted to. In
the car she asked Bobby about her.
"Christy?" he said, his mouth full. "If Christy took him
someplace, she has a reason."
"What kind of reason?"
"She's very practical," said Bobby. "It could be anything."
"I'm nervous about them being together," she said.
"Why in the world would you be nervous?" he asked.
"What if she hurts him?"
"Why would she hurt him?" Bobby sounded confused.
"You know ... toy with his affections."
Bobby was just like anybody else. He had the capacity to
overlook things, to misunderstand things, and to labor under
stereotypical ways of thinking. It wasn't that odd that,
while he liked Will, he might not see Will as being anybody's potential
romantic interest. But Bobby had also cultivated the ability
to recognize when he had screwed up and rethink things. He
did that now.
"First off, if she's interested in him ... it's real. She's
not just stringing him along to make him feel better. That's
not her style."
"She said she would like to talk to me about you," said
Erica. It was about all she could remember about the woman.
"What?" Bobby was even more confused. "Why?"
"I don't know," said Erica. "It was last night. I
got home just as she was helping Will up to the house. I told
her I'd been with you and she said that was interesting and that she'd like to talk to me about that. Then she said she had to get home to her daughter."
Bobby had a pretty good idea what Christy had been thinking.
Christy was perfectly capable of comparing notes with one of Bobby's
women, if for no other reason than to giggle and sigh about some
technique Bobby had used. The last thing he needed was for
people to start assuming that Erica Bradford was another of his
women. If she even found out about any of his women, she'd
probably never speak to him again.
Then, because Bobby was ... Bobby, he reflected for a quarter of a
minute or so on why it mattered if Erica Bradford ever spoke to him
again in his entire life. He decided that working on the
musical had been fun, and that he might want to work on the next one
too.
"I dated her for a little while," extemporized Bobby. "She
may have wanted to compare notes."
"Last night wasn't a date!" said Erica.
"Yeah, I know," said Bobby. "But other people might have
assumed it was."
Now it was Erica who spent fifteen seconds trying to decide whether or
not it mattered, if people thought she was on a date with
Bobby. She realized she was sitting in his car again, outside
the Wagon Wheel, on Main Street. Their breath and the steamy
pizza had made the windows go opaque white, so she couldn't look
outside to see if anyone was looking at them.
"Do you think anyone might think that what we're doing right now is a
date?" she asked.
"I suppose some might," he said.
"But you don't think so," she said.
"Nope," he said firmly.
"Why not?" she asked, actually trying to understand this complicated
social phenomenon.
"'Cause if this was a date, these windows would be all fogged
up for another reason." He grinned, thinking he'd made a joke.
It was no joke to Erica, though, as his meaning burst into her
mind. She had spent enough time with Bobby Dalton to know,
beyond even her own doubts, that he was no sexist male intent on
getting whatever he could from a woman. What she would almost
certainly have perceived as a rude and uncalled for comment from almost
any other man, simply brought all the images into her head that had so
tormented her over the months since she'd met him. She
remembered the dreams about him, the thoughts she'd had as, in her
imagination, Bobby's face had intruded on Will's, while she gave her
brother love. Quite suddenly her nipples demanded to be
squeezed, and she felt helpless because the fingers she wanted
squeezing them were three feet away, on the hands of Bobby Dalton.
She felt shame and confusion and lust all at once ... all the things
that teenage girls all feel as they thread their way through the
minefield that is the onset of puberty. She hadn't tiptoed
through that minefield, at least not until lately with her brother, and
the overwhelming crush of not understanding what was going on inside
her brought tears to her eyes.
Bobby, in the dim light that filtered through the fog on the windows,
saw her crumble and he knew, instinctively, that she was in some kind
of terrible pain.
"What's wrong?" he asked softly, leaning toward her.
He thought he was helping ... at least offering help ... but as he
reached to touch her thigh, her senses equated that touch with what she
had felt last night ... just before her brother's thick, firm finger
had penetrated her and brought her so much joy.
Her fingers scrabbled for the door handle, as she sobbed convulsively
twice and then held her breath, mortified that she was losing control
of herself in front of this man. The door flew open, because
her shoulder was leaning against it, and she almost fell out.
"Erica!" She heard her name shouted as she lurched out of the
door and ran, almost blindly, because she couldn't hold her breath
anymore and that meant she was sobbing again. She wiped at
her eyes and narrowly missed slamming into a light pole.
"Erica?" She could hear the question in his voice, and she knew he'd
gotten out of the car. She hoped against hope that he
wouldn't chase her, because she had no idea what she'd do if she felt
his hands on her. Her sobs subsided as she began panting for
breath, just to keep running.
It was cold. The jacket she'd worn was fine for going from
the house to the car, to the school and back again, but too light for
staying out in weather that was ten degrees below zero - lower if you included the wind index. She could no longer feel her face, fingers or feet and she was still six blocks from home.
She had moved through phases of emotion. First was the fright
of not understanding why she wanted his hands on her, then anger toward
him, because it had to be his fault, somehow. That had given
way to exhaustion, as she ran herself almost limp. Then her
sweating body had cooled rapidly in the frigid air, and she'd
begun to think again. She turned toward home hurriedly, on
legs that weren't used to running and just wanted her to sit down
somewhere.
She couldn't do that, so she plodded, thankful that there was no snow
to trip her. Her feet didn't seem to be working
right. She stared down at them as one went forward, and then
the other. She'd been shivering, but now she couldn't feel
anything. Her legs were so stiff, she could barely bend her
knees. Her whole body was so tired. She needed to
sit down. She needed to take a nap. She couldn't do
that though, because something was making too much noise.
The engine noise finally registered, and then the lights, as she
realized a car had pulled up beside her.
"Erica?"
It was him.
She stopped, feeling helpless. She'd already worked through
the anger. She knew it wasn't his fault. She still
didn't understand why she'd felt like she was falling apart, but she
was too tired to think about that now. She heard the car door
slam.
"What did I do?" he asked. She heard honest questioning in
his voice.
"Nothing," she said dully. Her lips weren't working
right either.
"What happened?" he asked.
"I don't know," she said, her voice flat.
"You're freezing," he said.
When he said that, she heard the chattering of her own teeth.
His hands on her shoulders didn't make her fall apart. She
spent a few seconds reveling at that fact ... that he could touch her
and she didn't just fly apart. She let herself be moved past
the front of the car and then he opened the door for her. Her
feet felt like they were frozen to the ground, but finally she was able
to turn in a little circle and collapse backwards. He helped
her get her feet into the car.
When the door closed, the heat felt like fire on her face, but it was
welcome fire, and she slumped in the seat. In two minutes it
would have taken her half an hour or more to walk, they were there, and
he was helping her out of the car. He hadn't spoken a word
since he'd put her into it.
"Where are your keys?" he asked as she shuffled up the ramp he'd
built. She still couldn't feel her feet. Tennis
shoes didn't work in this kind of cold either, apparently.
She tried to reach into her pocket - she didn't carry a purse - and she
could get her fingers in, but couldn't grasp the ring of keys.
"I can't," she mumbled. Why didn't her lips work?
She felt his hand pull hers out, and then the pressure of his hand in
her pocket. He opened the door and shoved her
inside.
"Bathroom." His one word was an order. The
rebellion in her mind wouldn't translate into resistance, though, and
she stumbled toward that room, following him. She stopped in
the door and looked at him, bent over the tub, his hands on the
faucets. She felt dreamy as she stared at the tight cloth
stretched across his backside. Her brain was trying to tell
her something, but it was too much trouble to concentrate.
She figured out what her brain was all upset about when he turned and
started taking her clothes off. He intended to put her in the
bathtub.
"No!" she moaned.
"If you don't have frostbite, you're very close," he said, sounding
almost angry. "First you try to cook yourself to death, and
now this."
She closed her eyes, hoping that would stop her from knowing what was
going on, because she was quite sure that if he got her naked, he would
put his long, thick penis inside her and she wouldn't be a virgin
anymore. She giggled as she thought that might solve all her
problems. If she wasn't a virgin anymore ... then she had
nothing to protect. The penis hanging over the mouth of her
vagina floated into her mind again. She leaned forward,
trying to get that penis to move, and felt his hands keep her from
falling.
Then there was a moment of complete disorientation as the world turned
upside down, before she realized she was in his arms, at which point
there was water covering her face. She felt pain in her scalp
and suddenly there was air to breathe again. She coughed.
In the next thirty seconds, she moved through a very complex reaction
to her new situation. First, she realized he was holding her
head out of the water by lifting a fistful of her hair. That
hurt. Then her body reacted to the heat of the water he had
just drawn. It felt like she had been plopped down into
boiling water. That hurt so much she screamed.
In fact, the water was only about eighty degrees. Bobby had
mixed cold water with the hot. But her skin temperature was
very near fifty degrees when it was submerged into the water that was
thirty degrees hotter.
She flailed as muscle control came back.
"I know it hurts," said Bobby. "But you have to stay still!"
She used every curse word she knew, and made up a few more, but his
weight was centered on the hand that was pushing against her stomach
and holding her to the bottom of the tub. Still she fought,
and, within three minutes, the tub was only half full and her breasts
were exposed to the air in the room. It was actually that
that shocked her body into submission, because her breasts felt
suddenly cold. That led to the knowledge that she was naked,
and that Bobby's head was right over her chest.
She quit fighting him, and covered her breasts with her hands.
"All right!" she yelled.
He held her for a few seconds longer, waiting to make sure she didn't
try to surge up out of the water again. By then, though, her
skin had heated up and the water only felt hot, rather than
scalding. He stood up. The front of his clothes
were soaked with the water she had splashed on him.
"I'm going to run more water," he said. "You need to stay
submerged until you can't feel the heat in the water anymore."
She just looked at him.
He started the water running again, holding his hand under it to adjust
the temperature. She felt the heat of it on her
legs. Obviously it wasn't as hot as it felt, because his hand
was under it. He wouldn't burn himself. "He
wouldn't burn me either," she thought to herself.
The water rose back up until she was covered again. She could
scoot back now, and keep her own head above the surface. She
had to use her hands to do that, but she put them back on her breasts
as soon as possible.
"Do you have a robe?" he asked.
"Yes." She sounded petulant, even to
herself. She knew that what he'd done was the right
thing to do. Her body was beginning to feel alive again.
"Which room should I start looking for it in?" There was a
half smile on his face.
"Why are you smiling?" she asked, heat in her voice, if not in her
bones. "There's nothing funny about this."
"No, of course not," he said. "Unless you think about how the
big tough liberated woman keeps trying to kill herself, and would have
succeeded both times if a man hadn't been around to save her liberated
skin."
"That's not funny!" she snarled.
"It is to me," he said. "Now, where's that robe?"
"It's in my bedroom ... where you have no business being," she said,
stubbornly.
He shook his head. "You're an idiot!" he said.
"That has to be it. You're just retarded or something,
because nobody with any intelligence would come up with the crap you
come up with."
"I am not!" she shouted, but it was too late. He was already
gone.
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