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The Making of a Gigolo (14) - Erica Bradford
by Lubrican
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Chapter Fourteen
Bobby found Tilly and Jake in the hallway. Tilly hugged him.
"I don't think this is a good idea," she whispered in his ear.
"I know," he whispered back. He pulled away from her and
looked at Jake, who looked a little worried. Bobby didn't
think it had anything to do with Tilly hugging him.
"So ... this was your idea?" Bobby asked Jake.
Jake seemed to give himself a mental shake and looked at Bobby.
"Yeah," he said, his voice a little husky. "I just think it's
time I got out more."
"You get out all the time," Bobby pointed out. That was
true. Ever since Tilly had started having babies, which
people just naturally thought were Jake's, he'd been going more places
with his wife and being seen in public.
"I know," said Jake. He smiled a tentative smile.
"There's no critic like a kid," he said.
"I thought the idea was for you to be the critic."
"What do I know about this stuff?" asked Jake. "The last
musical I went to was in this auditorium." He pointed to the
doors that led to the stage. "That was for an assembly we had
to go to. It was called 'Bye Bye Birdie,' and I still don't
know what it was about."
"Okay," said Bobby, as if something had been explained. "But
why drag Will into it too?"
"You can't hide," said Jake. "I tried. I don't want
him to go through the same thing I did, sitting alone someplace, hating
the world, because you never have anything to do with it."
He would have gone on, but the sound of Erica and Will's arrival made
them all turn and look at the couple coming up the hallway.
Bobby peeked in through the double doors. Mrs. Staffordshire
was apparently through with her comments, because the first act had
started again. From the little Bobby saw it wasn't much
different from when they'd done it for him. He turned around
as Erica pulled Will's wheelchair to a stop. She looked
almost panicked.
"They're going through it now," he said, for lack of anything else to
say. "I think Mrs. Staffordshire gave them a pep talk."
The women dithered, while the men sat, looking stern, until Bobby just
pulled the double doors open and stood back. Neither woman
moved until Jake said, "Tilly!" She and Erica both jerked, and
the chairs started moving again.
The two men were pushed past the young actors, most of whom stopped and
stared, instead of making the motions that were supposed to suggest a
country fair was going on in Brigadoon. The song "McConnachy
Square" was being sung, and by the time the men were sitting side by
side at the front of the stage, only about half the kids were actually
singing. Julia bellowed "KEEP SINGING!" and the song began
picking up voices, one or two at a time, until suddenly no one was
looking at the two men in wheelchairs.
It was almost comical how the kids, in trying not to look at the two
men they thought of as "cripples," fell back on the only routine at
hand at the moment. That routine was the lines and movements
they had practiced for so long. There were still occasional
darting glances toward the front of the stage but, by and large, the
actors were suddenly very interested in their lines, and who they were
supposed to be interacting with.
Meg Brockie, the amorous dairy vendor was introduced, along with Angus
McGuffie, her employer, and then Archie Beaton, the plaid merchant, and
his son Harry. The plot tumbled on without the stops and
starts that were usual as the audience met the McLaren family and found
out that Harry Beaton was still madly in love with Jean McLaren, who
was about to be married to another man that day.
Erica finally felt capable of leaving Will alone, and joined Julia
Staffordshire to watch as "Waitin' For My Dearie" was sung by Emily
Emerson, playing the part of Fiona. Bobby just stood by
Tilly, on the opposite side of Will, and watched with them.
There were the inevitable hang-ups, as players who had had to pretend
they had props, and imagine the sets that hadn't been finished yet,
interacted with the real thing. But, for the most part, Erica
only had to prompt things four or five times as the kids ran through
the first act. It was a first for them all, because that act
had never been done from start to finish in one episode.
In fact, working on that first act took the whole night, because once
they got started and actually did it, the kids wanted to correct every
little problem. It was one of those "elephant in the room"
situations where, to be able to ignore Will and Jake, the kids
concentrated on the only other thing available to take up their mostly
full attention.
That is not to say that no one paid any attention to the two disabled
men. A fair number of the cast were off stage at any given
time, and clusters of teenagers gravitated toward each other to sneak
quick and not-so-quick peeks at the two wrecked men sitting at the
front of the stage. Those men just sat and watched, their
faces not quite stony, but certainly not betraying any clue as to what
they were thinking. It was like they were some kind of
grotesque statues.
Eventually Bobby took Tilly's elbow and led her to the stairs and down
to sit in the seats. That movement drew Erica's eyes, which
took in Tilly's hand in Bobby's. Later she looked for them
and saw them in the second or third row back, off to one side so they
could see around Jake and Will. They were still holding
hands. Erica had no time to evaluate that information,
because the show ground to a halt as a set change was made to move to
the forest, where Meg was going to try to seduce Jeff. They
had never had all the sets to deal with before and had to figure out a
way to stand them side by side off stage. By the time they
had that figured out and the two actors were on stage, and Erica turned
to look, Tilly was sitting alone.
Bobby had left the auditorium.
The next week wrought almost astonishing changes for the
whole group of people involved with bringing Brigadoon to
life. Some of those things were directly related to the
production, and some were not.
It didn't quite work out the way Jake had thought it would.
His and Will's presence, just sitting in their chairs at the front of
the stage each night, didn't really do anything about stage fright.
The elephant was still in the room ... two of them, in fact.
What their presence seemed to do was require the kids, on some mystical
social level, to completely ignore the two men, at least
initially. The best way to do that, it turned out, was for
the uncomfortable teenagers to pretend they were the characters in the
musical, and give that their full attention. And, once the
two disturbing men had been examined through hasty peeks, the kids who
weren't on stage turned their attention to the production, to
concentrate on something not so disturbing. Nobody even thought about asking what the two men thought.
It took four nights before a teen, walking past them, shyly said
"Hi." That was returned with a similar greeting, delivered in
a deep voice.
Then it became "Hi, I'm Sarah," or, "Hi, I'm Jimmy." It was
inevitable, once the elephants were found to be able to speak, that
someone ask, "So ... what do you think?"
It turned out that that person was, of all people, Tabitha Jenkins, the
cheerleader/artist who kept coming to play practice, even though the
sets were finished. She was forever dabbing paint here or
there, to improve her canvases, but spent a lot of time just watching
rehearsal too. She was the one who eventually spoke more than
one or two words to the men. She was walking from one side of
the stage to the other, trying not to disturb the flow of the funeral
in act two, and so chose to walk around the arc of the front of the
stage. She stopped behind and between the two men.
"So ... what do you think?" she asked.
Will had been asked that question almost nightly by his
sister. His initial judgments had been kept to himself,
because he didn't want to hurt her feelings. He had been
vague in his comments, for the most part. But things were
coming together rapidly. When the kids actually paid
attention to what they were supposed to be doing, the improvement was
almost palpable.
Jake was the only one who could turn his head far enough to actually
look at her, over his shoulder.
"Men aren't supposed to like this stuff ... are they?" He
grinned.
"I don't see why not," said Tabitha. Jake wasn't so hard to
look at. His face looked just like the face of any other
older man.
"I'm definitely into it," said Will, looking forward. He
didn't even try to turn, because he knew the tight skin on his neck and
shoulder wouldn't allow it.
"Cool," said Tabitha.
That was it, for that night. But the elephants had been
spoken to. Other teens had seen her stop, and seen her mouth
moving ... seen Jake turn and address her. Their curiosity
was not assuaged by Tabitha when she was questioned.
"I just said hi," she claimed.
Those who had seen, though, knew that much more had been said than a
simple one word greeting.
That led to more kids wandering by the wheelchairs ... and more words
being exchanged. Their youthful curiosity had been pushed
away by the strangeness of the two men, but familiarity with that strangeness seemed,
somehow, to allow curiosity to bubble back up to the surface.
Rough spots were identified, and Erica stopped things to go over those
scenes, again and again, until the roughness was smoothed
over. That meant large numbers of kids had nothing to
do. Watching the same scene over and over again was boring.
The two men at the front of the stage were not.
It took another three days before Donald Thompson had the courage ... or
foolishness, depending on how you looked at it ... to finally say what
was on every young mind in the place.
"So ... what happened to you, anyway?"
He was immediately corrected by four of the nine kids who, for some
reason, had nothing better to do than stand around the two men in the
wheelchairs. Jake corrected the correctors.
"It's a normal question," he said. "I was in a mining
accident, and my buddy Will here was in Vietnam."
That was all that was said at that moment, but the dam had been
cracked. On a Thursday evening, when the boy playing the part
of Jeff bumped into the edge of a set and drove a long splinter into
the flesh above his knee, Erica stopped everything and took him to the
nurse's office, hopefully to find antiseptic and bandages.
That left the whole group alone with Will and Jake ... and with nothing
to do.
Erica got back to find the entire cast standing, or sitting, in front
of the two men. Will was describing how the helmet he had
been wearing had shielded the top and sides of his head from the
napalm, which was why his hair looked completely normal, even though it
was above a ruined face, with a lump of scar for an ear.
Had she known this would happen, Erica would have done anything to
prevent it. She would have believed quite strongly that such
a description had no place in the ears of teenagers ... that they would
neither understand nor be able to tolerate such graphic knowledge.
She stood, jaw slack, though, as first one then another teen asked
questions about what it was like to be in that much pain, and to be
afraid that you might die, and to say things like, "If that happened to
me I don't think I'd want to live."
Part of her amazement was that such a serious conversation was being
thoughtfully approached by all present. She could tell by the
pink tint on Will's right cheek that his emotional level was high, but
he didn't pull back or tell them to leave him alone. Jake
drew the line when someone wanted to see the stump of his arm, but even
that seemed to be just a wave that sank back into the sea of interest
and questions.
It had only been quiet for ten seconds ... a somewhat natural lull in
the group conversation, as kids evaluated what they had just heard, and
before another question could be voiced, when Erica cleared her throat.
"We're here to practice, not grill these men," she said.
She was left astonished when the group rose, almost as one, and went
back to work.
From that moment on, Jake and Will were almost never left alone long, as
they sat on the stage. What Erica never learned, though, was
that once the kids' curiosity was satisfied, they began to ask the men
other questions.
Those questions had to do with what the men watched the cast do every
night.
Something else that happened while Will and Jake were being
"normalized" by the kids, and which also caused a lot of uproar, was
when a pair of men walked down the aisle between the right and middle
seats of the auditorium and asked for Erica. She told the
kids to keep working on the scene being rehearsed and went down the
steps to meet him.
"I'm Erica Bradford," she said, approaching the men.
They were about as different as it was possible to be,
physically. One was much older and short, while the other was
so thin and tall that he looked almost emaciated. She held
out her hand to the short man, who was half a step ahead of the tall
one.
"How can I help you?" she asked.
"I hope it's the other way around, actually," he said
smiling. "I'm Chester Chumley. This gentleman with
me is named Sidney McGregor and I've hired him to provide his services
to your musical."
"Services?" Erica was at a loss. "I don't
understand."
She knew who Chester Chumley was, of course. Everybody in
town knew about the Chumleys. She'd never actually met either
this man or his wife, though, and had no idea whether whatever he was
talking about came with strings attached or not. Most rich
men didn't do anything without some kind of strings being attached.
"I'm a bagpiper," said Sidney, reaching past Chester to take the hand
Chester had just released. "I live in Kansas City and belong
to a bagpiper club there."
"I've heard that there are several places that a real
bagpiper might add drama to the production," said Chester. "I
made some inquiries and found Mr. McGregor through his club and hired him.
I hope I haven't overstepped any boundaries."
"No," said Erica a little weakly. "This is
wonderful!" She didn't know quite what to say next.
"It's still a week and a half before the show opens, though," she said.
"I asked Mr. McGregor to make himself available for as many rehearsals
as you think is needed," said Chester. "I'm sure he doesn't
need to be here every day, but I did want him to exhibit his
talents. That's why he's here today ... if you have
time."
"I brought my pipes," said Sidney, unnecessarily. His
eagerness to show off was plain. "Though I left my costume at
home," he added.
"Well!" said Erica, deciding not to look this particular gift horse in
the mouth. "Are you familiar with Brigadoon?"
"Intimately," said Sidney, his voice very firm.
"Perhaps we could rehearse the funeral scene," said Erica.
"Give me ten minutes," said Sidney. "I'll come in from the
back and parade down the aisle. I'll climb up onto the stage
and then you can decide what to do with me after that."
Erica was delighted.
"Don't tell them what's going to happen," said Sidney. "It's
so much more fun to see the expression on their faces when they hear me
for the first time."
He left and Erica turned to Chester.
"Is there anything ... um ... associated with this gift?" she asked.
"Do you mean do I want anything in return?" asked Chester,
smiling. "No. I do not. When my friend
suggested this I thought it was a brilliant idea. I don't
know if bagpipes have ever been heard in Granger or not. This
will bring a little culture here. That's enough for me."
"Who is your friend?" asked Erica. "In addition to thanking
you, I must remember to thank ..." She didn't know whether to
say "him" or "her" and finally decided on something politically
correct, "this person for suggesting it to you."
"His name is Bobby Dalton," said Chester. "I believe you've
met him already."
Erica was astonished. Bobby Dalton was this man's friend?
"Yes," said Erica, feeling like she was expected to say
something. "I have. I'll remember to thank him."
"Would it be all right if I stayed and watched the fun?" asked Chester.
"Of course!" said Erica.
She went back to the stage where she "decided" that the scene currently
being rehearsed needed a rest and called for everyone in the funeral
scene. It had been planned to play a record of bagpipe music,
during the production, with speakers out on the edge of the stage, but
none of that had been brought together yet. One of the kids
had taken to humming "Amazing Grace" at the appropriate
time.
For Erica, it was priceless as, when the time came, and Steven started
humming, there was a ghostly racket from the back of the
auditorium. It quickly stabilized into the familiar drone
peculiar to the bagpipe, and then Sidney entered the auditorium playing
the tune on the chanter of the pipes.
Everybody froze. Even though he wasn't in costume, Sidney had
a ramrod stiff, almost military bearing as he marched slowly down the
aisle and mounted the steps. By the time he stepped onto the
stage itself, every person in the place was staring at him.
The music brought an upwelling of emotion to Erica and she felt tears
in her eyes.
This wonderful gift would be fabulous beyond calculation when the
auditorium was full of spectators. She turned to look at the
old man whose name was sometimes said in hushed tones, because of his
power in this town. He was grinning like a kid, watching the
piper along with everyone else.
Another thing that affected the lives of two of the people involved in
the production happened away from the school.
Erica was having more and more trouble with flitting thoughts of her
brother's hard penis. Those thoughts always assailed her as
she stroked it, looking at it, anticipating when it would
spurt. First those thoughts were of his penis dangling over
her sex, as she lay back on a bed. But then, over time, that
penis got closer and closer to her, until the tip nosed between the
lips between her legs.
Most girls wonder, at one time or another, what it might feel like for
a man's penis to be inside her. Erica was just a little late
at getting to that point in her life. That didn't make it any
less upsetting, though.
The scene that kept playing through her head was from that old blue
movie, where the "substitute teacher" was replaced with her, and the penis
descending toward and then penetrating the vagina on the screen was
Will's. When she couldn't get that scene out of her head, her
mind searched for something else to replace it with.
What it selected was the scene where the substitute looked down at the
stiff penis, opened her mouth, and then moved her head down.
Erica Bradford thought it made all the sense in the world. To
stop thinking about having intercourse with Will, all she had to do was
concentrate on having oral sex with him. Basically her libido was stuck in her teens, even though she was much older. And what she chose to do about it was something a teenager might have come up with.
She didn't warn him. One minute she was stroking him, while
he moaned his appreciation, and the next minute her mouth closed over
him.
She didn't know what to do after that point.
Once Will stopped freaking out, he taught her.
The most momentous event that happened that January, as far as the
people associated with the production of Brigadoon were concerned,
started with pure routine, though it was exciting nonetheless.
When all the costumes were ready, Christy Brown showed up to take the
photographs that would be used on the posters announcing the
show. Those posters would be plastered around town.
Attendance at these things was always good. Some of that was
because there was nothing else to do in Granger on a Thursday
night. The show was scheduled to run Thursday, Friday and
Saturday. Someone once calculated that the entire town could
fit into the auditorium if it had twice as many
seats. Rather than try to pack the house, though,
they ran three nights so that everybody got a chance to come if they
wanted to, and it was on whatever night was best for them.
The other reason people came was because Erica's predecessor had
produced very good shows. Several strangers, people from Hutch, had showed up in the past.
Christy had done this before, and she had told Erica that what she
preferred to do was watch a run-through of the show, during which she
would take pictures at candid moments. That way they didn't
look too posed. In addition, there would be group shots and
individual portraits of the "stars" of the show. What wasn't
used for the flyers would be made available to the yearbook staff,
which always did a section on drama and musical events during the year.
That put Christy at the front of the stage ... with Jake and Will.
She knew Jake, of course, and had sat with him and Tilly at different
town celebrations in the past. She had taken pictures of
their older child for the yearbook of his school. She had
heard of Will, though she'd never met him.
She tried to keep what she was feeling out of her eyes as Jake
introduced her to Will. She wasn't all that
successful. It made for some awkwardness, initially.
But Will and Jake, as they sat there watching the rehearsal night after
night, had gotten into the habit of talking to each other about the
differences and similarities they saw as the cast matured.
Will often shared their observations with Erica, at home, while they
ate a late supper, or masturbated, which was now a routine they rarely
missed, unless Erica was on her period.
As a consequence, they began to make recommendations to Christy about
when a good shot might be coming up. As she stood and
watched, the voices that she heard sounded completely normal.
Will's voice had a barely detectable almost lisp, that was a result of
the tight skin on the left side of his mouth, but other than that, what
she heard didn't conjure up anything in terms of a mental image of the
speaker.
Familiarity with something strange had reduced the strangeness of it, as far as the kids were concerned. It worked that way with Christy, too, somewhat more quickly since she was more mature. Christy was there for three hours and for most of
that time she was standing within ten feet of the two men.
She was already used to Jake. It didn't take her all that
long to put Will into the same category ... a man to whom something
terrible had happened, but who was still a human being inside.
By the time she was ready to do the group and individual portraits, her
feelings of revulsion when she looked at Will had lessened.
He sounded so completely normal when he talked about which kids had the
best expressions on their faces, or seemed to be the most involved in
the scene they were acting in.
She was packing up her equipment when Tilly came to pick Jake up, and
greeted her too. Erica was still busy with something back
stage, and that left Christy alone with Will.
"You're good at that," said Will. "I don't know that much
about photography, but I can tell."
"Thanks," said Christy. "I love what I do."
She would never be able to explain why she did it, but she turned to
him and said, "I understand you were in Vietnam."
"Yeah," he said.
"My husband ... my ex husband now ... he was there."
"When?" asked Will.
"Nineteen-seventy and seventy-one," she answered. "It's what
destroyed our marriage."
"Before my time," said Will. "But Nam destroyed a lot of
marriages."
"He didn't get ... hurt," said Christy.
"Lucky," said Will.
"I'm sorry you did."
"Why?" he asked. "I mean you don't even know me."
"Nobody should have to go through that," she said. "I hate
war."
"Don't get me started," said Will.
"I always felt like what happened ... between Richard and me ... was my
fault," she said.
"It wasn't your fault," said Will. "Somebody had to
go. It turned out to be him."
"You don't understand," said Christy, thinking of the fact that she'd
gotten pregnant while her husband was off fighting. That he'd
cheated on her didn't make her feel any better. That she
loved Bobby and loved their child didn't help either. She
still felt some responsibility for the marriage breaking up.
"Why don't you tell me about it," he suggested.
"He wouldn't come home," she said. "He could have, but he
kept going to schools and getting promoted and going back to Vietnam."
"Oh," said Will. "A lifer. I know the type."
"And he had ... other women," she said. She was still trying
to justify things in her mind, years afterward.
"Yeah," said Will. "That happened a lot too. If
it's any help to you, most guys only did that because they thought they
were going to die, and that was about the only thing that could take
your mind off the war for a little bit."
"I don't think that was what happened to him. He did something with supplies and was stationed in Saigon. As far as I know he never went into battle."
"Oh," said Will. "A REMF." His voice sounded derisive.
What does that mean?" asked Christy.
"It's not very polite," said Will. "I shouldn't have said anything."
"No, really," said Christy. "He told me so little about what his Army life was like. I'd like to know."
"You sure?"
"Yes, I'm sure."
"It means rear area mother fucker," said Will. "They had safe jobs in the rear and never took any chances. They had luxuries like cold beer and steak and soft beds." He stopped, but then added, "And toilet paper. I could go on and on, but I won't."
"I can't put all the blame on him," said Christy. "It was just as much my fault. I cheated on him
too."
"Oh," said Will. He sounded sad.
"It was after our marriage was already dead," she said, somewhat
defensively, "but I know I shouldn't have done it."
"Sometimes the wrong people get married to each other," said
Will. It was no skin off his nose, but this woman was the
first normal woman to talk to him in a long time. She wasn't
all weepy and pitiful about his condition either, though he'd seen the
horror in her eyes when she first met him. That horror wasn't
there now, though. It was nice to have a normal conversation,
even if it had to be about the war.
"It was nice to meet you," said Christy, picking up her bag and
shouldering it. "You were very helpful in alerting me about
good shots."
"Sure," he said. "No problem."
She hesitated. "Do you mind if I ask you a personal question?"
Here it came. They always wanted to know some intimate detail
about his injuries. He almost sighed.
"Shoot," he said.
"Why are you here?"
"Here at school?" he asked. The question wasn't what he
expected.
"Yes."
"Oh," he chuckled. "Jake had this crazy idea that if the two
of us sat out here while they practiced, it would freak the kids out
and then, when it came to the real thing, and we weren't here anymore,
they wouldn't get stage fright."
"Really!" She seemed astonished.
"Yup," he said. "We're just here to scare the dickens out of
them."
She looked fully at him.
"Is it working? You don't seem all that scary to me."
"I think it did at first," said Will. "Now the kids just sit
and talk to us whenever they get a chance. You wouldn't
believe what teenagers talk about these days," he said. "I
can't understand half of it, because it sounds like a foreign language
half the time."
"How interesting," she said. "I have to go. I hope
to see you again sometime."
Will watched her walk away. She was a babe. In the
past, that would have hurt, because it made him think about things that
weren't good for a man in his condition to think about. Now
he had Erica, though, so it wasn't so bad. Now, when he went
home, the feelings a woman like Christy had caused to surge in him ...
could be dealt with.
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