The Making of a Gigolo (12) - Janet Griswold
by Lubrican
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Chapter Two
It was late when he got her back home. He walked
her to the door, at which point she was nervous again.
"I'm not going to try to kiss you good night," he said, joking.
"Thank you," she said, perfectly serious.
"I would like to spend some more time with you, though," he said.
"You already spent the three hours with me," she pointed out.
"I decided to donate that time," he said, grinning. "Rhonda's
time hasn't started yet."
She looked at him. "You just want to get in my pants," she
accused.
"That thought has occurred to me," he teased. Then he got
serious. "But if that never happens, then that never
happens. I can live with that. I just
want to know, at some point, that you're comfortable being around a man
who finds you very attractive, and would get in your pants if he could."
"You're a very strange man," she said.
"Nope," he said. "I'm normal in every
way. That's what I want you to
understand. I want you to understand there are perfectly
nice, perfectly harmless, perfectly normal men out there that you don't
have to be afraid of."
"You make it sound like you're on a mission," she said.
"Maybe I am," he responded.
An hour later, Janet lay in bed, thinking about the evening.
She didn't feel nervous now. But then, he was
gone. He had looked so big, standing
there. He had such big, strong hands ... hands that could
hurt her. Her conscious mind told her he'd never do
that, but it was impossible to just abandon the caution she'd built
into a wall between her and men in general.
Maybe she could put a door in that wall ... a very small door ... that
somehow, only Bobby Dalton could come through ... just to talk, of
course. She'd really liked talking, even though she'd told
him some very private things. She was pretty sure
she could trust him not to blab that around. She could trust
him that far, at least. And he had spent all that
time with her, without trying anything.
She had never had that kind of conversation with a man ... a
conversation in which he said he wanted her ... as a woman ... but then
didn't push it ... didn't force it ... didn't demand it.
The woman in her loved that honest attention. Men looked at
her in the grocery store all the time. She was aware of
that. She knew what they were thinking, as they stared at her
breasts instead of her face. They weren't honest about it,
though. They made polite conversation, as if they
weren't thinking about her breasts. It was one of the reasons
she didn't trust men.
Her conscious mind made a decision, there in the dark. She'd
give Bobby a chance ... let him see her again. She'd be very
careful, but she'd explore this different kind of man a little
more. Not that she'd do anything with
him. Just more talking, maybe. Yes ...
that might be nice. She'd trust him ... just a little ...
while still being careful.
She was wondering what the next time would be like as she drifted off
to sleep.
Janet should have known that Rhonda would be eager to find out how
things went. If she'd thought back to when she'd
hired Bobby for Rhonda, she might have remembered how curious she was
about Rhonda's experience with Bobby.
What was ironic about it was that she did exactly what Rhonda had done,
though not because she was coached by Bobby.
When Rhonda called the next morning, and squealed "Well, how was
it?!" Janet lied.
"He's quite a man," she said.
"Isn't he though?" sighed Rhonda. "I always love being with
him. Was he gentle with you?"
"Of course," said Janet.
"What did he do?" asked her friend, wondering if he always treated
every woman like he treated her.
"Oh, the usual things," said Janet, who had almost forgotten what "the
usual things" were.
It was that that undid her. She didn't sound either excited
or convincing.
"Such as," asked Rhonda, her voice different, with less enthusiasm and
more suspicion.
"Oh, you know," said Janet, trying to think about doing something with
Bobby and not panic at the same time.
"No, that's why I'm asking you," said Rhonda, suspicion heavy in her
voice.
"Like he does with you," said Janet, feeling a different kind of panic.
"You didn't let him, did you." said Rhonda. It was
a statement, rather than a question.
"Of course I did," said Janet.
"Don't you lie to me!" barked Rhonda. "What
happened? If he treated you badly, I'll skin him alive!"
"No!" said Janet. "It just didn't work out, that's
all. He didn't do anything wrong."
"It was your birthday present!" objected Rhonda. "It was
supposed to make you happy!"
"We had a good time," said Janet. "We went and got burgers in
Wichita."
"You went to Wichita?!" howled Rhonda, "Instead of getting laid by the
best lover this side of the Mississippi?!"
"Don't yell at me!" yelled Janet. "I told you it just didn't
work out. It was just a first date, okay? I'm going
to see him again! Calm down!"
"How can I calm down when I got my best friend the best birthday
present I could think of, and she didn't even open it?!"
"Please don't push me," moaned Janet. "We talked last night,
and it was really nice. I'm going to see him again.
Maybe something will happen."
"Janet, I paid him to have sex with you!" said Rhonda, her voice
harsh. "If he didn't have sex with you, it was because he prevented it."
"I know that," said Janet. "And I appreciate what you did for
me, really I do. I just got nervous, that's all."
"I was nervous too," said Rhonda, suddenly remembering that first night
with Bobby. She had chickened out too, come to think of
it. "Okay, I know how you felt. I'd forgotten that
part. It's okay. You said you're going to see him
again?"
"Yes," said Janet.
"Okay," said her best friend. "That's good enough for
me. I have faith in him."
"What about me?" asked Janet, somewhat perturbed.
"I have faith that Bobby will do whatever it is you need," said
Rhonda. "All you need to work on is letting him do whatever
that is."
"Oh," said Janet.
"He's a good man, Janet."
"I know that," said Janet.
"He can make you feel wonderful."
"I know that too," said Janet.
"You just have to learn to let him," said Rhonda.
"I know that too," said Janet again.
"So when is your second date?" asked her friend.
"I don't know yet," said Janet. "We didn't talk about that."
"If you ever want me to get you another birthday present, you'd better
call him pronto!" snapped Rhonda.
"Okay, okay, don't get your panties in a wad!" snapped Janet back at her
friend.
"When it comes to Bobby, I don't wear them anymore," said Rhonda,
smugly.
Then she hung up.
January of 1975 was a relatively calm month from Bobby's
perspective. Linda was still living at home, but most of her
time was spent with four month old Randall. She was
a single-minded mother, who was conflicted about her
child. She was aware that it was Bobby who had
gotten her pregnant, based on Randall's physical
characteristics. For that reason, she wanted Bobby to pay a
lot of attention to him, which Bobby was happy to do; being a surrogate
father for Paul, who was back at school again.
On the other hand, Linda loved Paul, and wished that she had had his baby. She was determined to get pregnant
by Paul as soon as possible. That caused her a problem,
because she still got horny, and Bobby was the only man around to solve
that problem. At the same time, she didn't want Bobby to get
her pregnant again. She had slipped up last time, letting him
spurt in her when it was dangerous to do so, and was intent on not
letting that happen again. The problem was that
Bobby loved sucking her milk, at least as much as Randall
did. both were lusty eaters. And when Bobby sucked
her milk, she wanted Bobby's prick in her pussy.
She therefore bounced from wanting Bobby to not wanting Bobby.
The twins were in their last year of high school, and had begun
dating. That in itself was unusual, because, up to that
point, they had had no interest in boys as anything other than
friends. When their mother had put the rest of the
girls on birth control pills, they were actually embarrassed by
it. They were quite sure that all the other kids in school
would find out their older sisters were on the pill and assume that
they were all sluts, and that the twins were probably sluts too.
That, in fact, was one of the reasons that the twins appeared to have
no interest in boys.
Being a twin can be a different kind of life than most of us
imagine. You're never really alone, even when you're alone,
because that other half of you is always hovering ... just
there, on the edge of consciousness. As a result, twins often spend a lot more
time interacting with each other than the rest of us interact with any
other person. What that can mean is that they don't
spend as much time as the rest of us thinking about other things ...
like sex.
This is not to suggest that twins don't have sexual thoughts.
They just may not have as much time each day to think about that as the
rest of us do. It is a small thing, but, as anyone
who has thrown a small pebble into a calm pond knows, small things can
have much bigger effects.
In this case, the pond was the fact that after Mirriam put the other
girls on the pill, and there were no more "incidents", things seemed to
be going along just fine. The twins, and Suzie too
for that matter, exhibited no outward indication that boys were
anything more than other people they sometimes had to deal
with. The pond was, more or less, the fact that the
twins did nothing to cause Mirriam to remember they weren't, in fact,
on the pill as they grew older.
They did of course eventually get more interested in boys.
That was the pebble.
They were in their senior year when they began paying attention to the
sexuality of the opposite sex. That was a
little late, compared to most girls. But the twins lived life
differently than other girls, and matured a little later than them
too. And, because they were twins, when
they finally decided to like boys for their more gender specific
qualities, that happened a little differently too.
The problem was that they both liked the same boy, a young man named
Chuck Cunningham. He liked both of them too, though he didn't
know it, at first. At first, he thought he liked Matilda,
because she was the one he asked out on a date.
When she went with him, and they had a great time, he asked her out
again.
Matilda, who had seen her sisters all go off on dates, some of them
when they were younger than she was at the time, didn't actually ask
her mother if she could start dating. In fact, she didn't
even tell her mother she was going on a date. That
was another small pebble.
Of course when Matilda got back from that first date, and regaled her
twin sister with the details, Betty was envious and, like many twins
do, talked her sister into letting her go out with Chuck the second
time.
They shared everything, so Matilda didn't think a thing about it. She was more than happ-y to describe the date in all the detail Betty would need to impersonate her sister on the next date.
They traded off every week, after that, for the "Friday night date", as
they termed it.
As twins will do though, they didn't tell anybody about their little
prank, though they didn't think of it as a prank.
They just acted like themselves at home which, compared with having
their other five sisters around, made things pretty quiet.
Now it has to be said here that this didn't happen in a
vacuum. Eventually, both Bobby and Mirriam realized that the
twins were dating. But they didn't talk about the "boys" they
were dating, and they only went out every other week, which didn't
suggest anything serious was in the offing. Basically, it
just appeared to the observers that Matilda and Betty were beginning to
explore a little.
What amazed Bobby was how quiet it had been with Suzie gone off to
college, and living in the dorm at K-State. He thought that was odd, since she'd always been the "quiet" sister, in his opinion.
That lasted until she came home from school for the
holidays, and talked nearly non-stop about how wonderful college was,
and how much she was learning, and how many places there were to get
something to eat in a place called, oddly enough
"Aggieville". You'd think a place called Aggieville would be
in Texas, but it was the downtown portion of Manhattan, Kansas, that
was right next to the K-State campus ... whose arch rivals included
teams from Texas.
Suzie loved college, loved learning, loved her professors, loved the
work study job she got in the animal research lab, and loved her
roommate who, like her, was a serious student and had no boyfriend.
And she loved telling Bobby about all of it, because it was Bobby, in
her opinion, who was responsible for her being there.
He took her to see the Chumley's, so she could bend their ears about
it. He got a fairly dark look from his sister, when Felicity
answered the door with an obvious swelling of the baby in her belly
that looked to have been growing there for about four or five
months. Suzie had a pretty good idea who had put that baby
there, which was the reason she gave her brother a dark look.
That was forgotten, though, when Felicity took obvious delight in
hearing all about college, and Aggieville, and everything else.
Bobby waited for Janet to call him. He knew Rhonda well, and
he knew that she'd do more towards getting Janet to call him than he
could do. He was right about that. Rhonda
hounded her friend.
When she called him, he recommended a walk in the woods.
"What?" she said. "It's freezing outside!"
"You can dress for that," said Bobby. "It will make you feel
more secure."
"You're making fun of me," she complained.
"No, I'm not," he said. "You and I both know you have trust
issues with men."
"I overreacted that night. I don't know why, but it's not that bad," she said. "Not normally and not with you."
"We'll walk first, and then I have some other ideas," he said.
"What ideas?" she asked.
"That's what we'll talk about on the walk," he said.
She finally agreed and, when he picked her up, she had on a thick coat,
a long knitted scarf wrapped around her neck and head, and oversized
mittens that she complained made her look like a cartoon character.
"I think you're gorgeous," said Bobby, grinning. "All I can
think about is what you look like under all that stuff."
She actually took that as a compliment, which surprised her.
He took her to the place where Christy and he had hiked to where the
old house was, though he didn't plan on going there. There
was just a well defined trail through the woods there, and places to
rest.
As they walked, Janet tried to figure out why his comment about
thinking about what she looked like under her coat had made her feel
good. She decided that it was because, with her coat on, she
was basically sexless looking. Somehow having a man say he
was thinking about her body, when her body wasn't on display, was
different than having a man look at her, and knowing what he was
thinking.
They hadn't done a lot of talking. They just walked along at
a leisurely pace, while she thought about things.
"What's it like?" she asked, suddenly.
"What's what like?"
"Being with different women," she explained.
"That's the key, I think," he said seriously. "They're all
different. They want to be treated differently, and they have
different ideas, and likes and dislikes. It's just
interesting being friends with different women."
"Is that the way you think about them?" she asked. "As
friends?"
"Sure," he said. "I like spending time with them, and they
like spending time with me. Isn't that what friends do?"
"Friends don't have sex with each other," she said.
"Some don't," he agreed. "Some do."
"Why did you bring me out here?" she asked. "Would you have
brought any of the others out here?"
"Actually I did bring one of the others out here," he said. "I guess, technically, she brought me out here. It was in the summer, though, and we went a lot farther than I plan on
taking you."
They walked on for a minute.
"You never answered the question," she said.
"About why?" he asked. She nodded, watching her breath plume
in the cold air.
"What are you feeling right now, this instant?" asked Bobby.
"About me ... about us?" he added.
She thought about that.
"Curiosity, more than anything else," she said.
"Any fear there?" he asked.
"No," she said promptly.
"There you go," he said.
"You did this because you knew I wouldn't be afraid of you ... doing
this?" she asked.
"I was right, wasn't I?"
She didn't answer, but trudged on. It didn't need an answer.
"What are we going to do when we get back?" she asked.
"I'd like to do something intimate, that doesn't cause you fear," he
said.
"Something intimate," she repeated. In her experience, the
only intimate things her husbands had done was climb on for a ride and
go like crazy.
"Yeah, something where we won't touch each other."
That piqued her curiosity.
"Like what?" she asked.
"I'd really like to see your breasts," he said calmly.
She felt a stab of ... something. It wasn't fear, though, and
that made her wonder what it was.
"Just look?" she asked.
"And maybe play with myself," he said, just as calmly.
"You mean ... masturbate?" her voice went up an octave.
"Yes," he said. "I'd like to look at your breasts and
masturbate." He looked over at her. "Does that make
you think I'm perverted?"
Both of her husbands had stroked themselves, while she was getting
undressed, or just before they mounted her. They had never
done it to completion. It had just looked like they were
excited, and anxious to get to what they called "the good
parts". The good parts had been pretty good for her
too. Both men had been lusty lovers. She didn't
have an orgasm every single time, but she had them, and they were
better than the ones she had these days, with her dildo.
"What would I have to do?" she asked.
"You wouldn't have to do anything," said Bobby.
"It's just something I thought we could do, that would be
non-threatening, in an intimate kind of way." They walked on
a few steps. "Don't get me wrong," he said. "I want
to touch you, and feel you, and make love to you too. We're
just not ready for that, yet."
He said it like it was a foregone conclusion that it would happen ...
some day. That sent a stab of something through her
too. Her husbands had ordered her to bed, on many
occasions. On some others, she had met them at the door, or
teased them, and gotten them going. But in all cases, they
were in command, once things started, and it went at their
pace. Again she thought about those words that
neither man would have used voluntarily ... "make love".
Bobby spoke again, breaking the silence. "Of course you could
play with yourself too, if you felt like it."
Janet tried to imagine herself, sliding her dildo in and out of her
pussy, right in front of Bobby. She was horrified at the
thought. Nobody in the world even knew she owned one.
"I don't think so," she said.
"That's fine," said Bobby. "We just need to do
something. Just something to let you know that intimacy
between us isn't something you have to be nervous about."
"How long are we going to walk?" asked Janet, who would have been
astonished to find that her inner brain had accepted his plan.
"Until you're ready to go back home and be intimate," he said.
"That's not fair," she moaned. "It's freezing out here."
"Are you cold?" he asked.
"Well ... no ... but it's still freezing."
He laughed. That made something move in her, because she
heard the pure joy of laughter in his voice. He wasn't
laughing at her. He was laughing because she had said
something comical.
"Are you ready to turn around now?" he asked.
She stopped, and looked at him, as he stopped and turned to face her.
"You just want to look?" she asked.
"Just look," he said. "And touch myself. I already
know I'll want to do that."
She stood there, and felt the cold nipping at her toes.
"We can go back now," she said.
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